Today for the first day in what feels like forever I had a moment to just get quiet alone with God. Something about being completely alone wrapped in silence (particularly in a hot bath!) that make Him feel so close. Amazing how many different ways there are to experience His presence… each one different… but I digress.
So I was sitting pondering the amount of stretching Allen and I are experiencing right now… and it is in all areas of our life. We are being tested and tried. And honestly, it’s rather painful sometimes. Sometimes it feels like we may snap. As Allen and I spoke earlier this evening the picture that came to mind was that of a rack. It just feels like we are being pulled in every direction.
And I had this thought… not a new one per say but I saw it with new eyes… what exactly are we being prepared for? God doesn’t just stretch and try and test for no reason… He does it with a purpose. Whatever it is – it feels big.
And the thing is a LOT of people we know are in the same position… many are being stretched… many are being prepared. Then after pondering all these thoughts, I came upstairs and found a blog posted by my friend Jess (our pastor’s wife) called Heavy Things – she was chewing on some weighty topics of the season we seem to be on the brink of…
I couldn’t help but wonder if that was the answer to my initial question… what exactly are we being prepared for… Initially, I’d planned to talk to God about what I’m to do when I reach the end of the TV/Movie fast next week… suddenly that felt very insignificant.
Lord, I thank You that I don’t have to fear – nor do any who trust in You and walk with You. Prepare us God for what is ahead – I know You are but I just say again that I am willing… do what You will. I trust You.