It’s been hard for me to blog lately. We’re in such a desert season and everything feels dry and cracked and ugly. So I’ve been journaling to myself and God and leaving y’all out of the mix.
You see in a season like this where God’s asked you to do things that in the natural are just foolish… it’s hard not to struggle with feeling completely… well, foolish! And feeling foolish makes you feel like you have nothing to share.
But today a friend posted a scripture that immediately quickened in my spirit (thank you Lisa!). It was 2 Chronicles 20:15, 17:
Thus says the LORD to you: ‘Do not be afraid nor dismayed because of this great multitude, for the battle is not yours, but God’s.
You will not need to fight in this battle. Position yourselves, stand still and see the salvation of the LORD, who is with you… Do not fear or be dismayed… for the LORD is with you.
Position yourselves and STAND STILL. Most of us tend to be people of action. It’s hard not to kick into survival mode and try to fight for ourselves… of course that’s why it’s called killing our flesh – it’s HARD!
Waiting on God when everything in you wants to “do something” is one of the greatest sacrifices I think a person can give. Because waiting costs us. We don’t just have to wait, we have to fight discouragement as the odds stack against us, we have to fight constant worry about whether we heard God correctly, we have to be comfortable looking foolish… which includes dealing with well-meaning comments made by others pointing put how foolish what you’re doing is. So you pause to encourage yourself with scriptures like:
But God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong. 1 Corinthians 1:27
This is my command—be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid or discouraged. For the Lord your God is with you wherever you go. Joshua 1:9
…the sheep follow him, for they know his voice. John 10:4b
But here’s the thing, to fight when God says wait shows a lack of character… whether it be doubt (of whether God will move), fear (that God won’t be faithful), pride (I can take care of this myself), people pleasing (what will people think of me if I don’t “do” anything?), or any number of others or any combination therein.
Which leads me to wonder, if you constantly find yourself in a position of being told to wait when your flesh is screaming “do something”, perhaps that simply means God’s giving you the opportunity to develop the character needed to wait on Him? Choosing to obey Him above all the other things vying for a reaction.
Lord, I just thank You for the opportunities You give us to develop character like Yours. God forgive us that these opportunities are frequently accompanied by whining or complaining. Forgive us for not immediately seeing Your kind hand in the midst of our circumstances.
Lord, I just say again, I trust You. I wait on You. To You be the glory. Amen.
(For the record, I’m not anti-action. I’m against action when God says wait. When God says move, I’m very pro-action.)