Thank You Lord… You are so good. You are faithful and You hear and respond to our prayers.
God forgive me. Forgive me for my arrogance in Your presence that I mistook for boldness. Thank You for the increasing understanding You are giving me of who You are. And the more I see and understand of who You are the more in awe I am at the fact that You are remotely mindful of me… let alone faithful to me and completely, jealously in love with me.
Lord, I just ask that You not stop… smack me out of my complacency and hurt my pride so that I might better understand who You are and that I am nothing compared to You and yet priceless in Your eyes. Give me the jolt of reality chased with fierce love… I receive it Lord and love You all the more for caring too much about me to let me settle.
I want all of You just as You want all of me.
You have been speaking to me about Your name Gelah Raz– Revealer of Mysteries. I love that thought… and as I began to understand more about WHY this is how You choose to be… it’s all about Your love for me… for us. You woo us in and entice us into a delightful lover’s game where we spend hours together as I try to find the hidden treasures… all while Your hand on the small of my back directs me – like in a dance – I feel a turn left here, or a pause, or a move swiftly… or Your soft voice whispers in my ear “why don’t you look here?” or “how about this?”… all a joyous engagement to grow our love – to grow our intimacy and so that You might have what You created us for… companionship with Yourself.
Wow. That overwhelms me.
And yet as I researched Your name, Gelah Raz (searching out one of the mysteries of You), I discovered one of the root words (reveal) also has another meaning… exile! Oh my – in Your fierce jealousy You actually woo us out into the desert – into exile… initially not a pleasant though, but then I ask why… so that there are no distractions. All I have is You.
And so I run to You and You meet me there… and we grow in our intimacy… just like any relationship or family that makes it through a difficult time together… they grow stronger when they have successfully made it through the season. So with us – as I walk through the desert (and on so many occasions You carry me) – our love deepens and grows. The beauty of the desert.
God, You are such a kind and merciful Lover and Father – Protector, Provider… thank You for being patient with me as it has taken a long time and I am just beginning to see.